“Tell me a little bit about yourself.”
This question knocks anyone off. We live in a world that is fast paced, moving continuously without giving anyone a chance to figure out who we are and what we want in life.
I was born on the road. I haven’t lived in a place for longer than five years and I am only 18. I have moved 12 times and been to 10 schools. Home to me is not exactly easy to pinpoint. Lately though, I have to say that home is becoming clearer to me.
Home isn’t the physical place. Yes, the physical place, such as smells, objects and anything to help recount memories help a place feel familiar. Home is where the heart is though… right? At least that is what I was told growing up, and I believe it.
These past two years in this place I have been settled in, I have learned that lesson. It hasn’t been easy. When you move as continuously as I have my whole life, once you hit a point where people get to know you and you begin to write your history there, you start looking forward to the new place to go to.
I am disappointed in myself for having lived like that. I didn’t get to enjoy many of the places I lived in and many of the people that were there for me through difficult times. I always told my parents I was ready to leave when new opportunities sprung up. The funny thing is, we would move to our new house and I would talk about how I missed the old place.
It’s January. It’s 2014. That’s scary. I definitely imagined this year would look different (I don’t know, you would think by now we would have flying cars right?). I have to say, starting off this blog, that I do think that I did accomplish one of my many 2013 New Year’s resolutions, and that was to enjoy what the year had to offer me. My weight fluctuated, my grades could have been better… but I found happiness. The best thing about that happiness is that it wasn’t through some relationship or physical object (car, new apartment, etc.), but through myself. Through my trials, my best days, my tears, my smiles and laughs.
One of my fears is letting my life slip through my fingers. I am done living life by the past. Living in the future is dangerous as well. I am living life day by day, appreciating the good and the bad that each one brings.
Cheers to 2014.