When 2017 started off, I was in a rut. I parted ways with my then host family due to scheduling issues, I had just finished up my first semester at the Sorbonne which was highly stressful and in all honesty, I was pretty worn out by a lot of personal things in my life. Jump ahead a few months, and though I am still struggling some mental battles, there are a lot of things to be grateful for in my life at the moment.
It has been a while since I have done a personal post. My life these past few couple of months has been hectic. But here is where I am at now:
I passed my first semester at the Sorbonne! I honestly was very nervous receiving the results, because some of the dissertations I wrote for the second semester finals didn’t feel so good. But I always find it’s a great feeling when we can surprise ourselves. Yes, I cried, and yes, I tweeted about it.
I am now moving on towards my second year, so I will almost be halfway done to graduation! I think something that really helps motivate me is the fact that I took some time off to figure out how I wanted to do my schooling. If you had told me on my graduation day from high school that I would be moving to France, speaking French and doing my studies at the Sorbonne, I would have laughed in your face. Me? Speak French? Go to school in France? That is the stuff from dreams, yet here I am today typing away in my little studio apartment in the center of Paris.
So far this year, I have traveled to a few places that have been on my bucket list for the longest time. Italy was one of them (forever one of my favorite countries and I am dying to go back), and I finally got to visit some close family friends in Germany (I have yet to write about it!). I still have a few places planned for this year, so as always, I will be updating the blog. One of my favorite experiences so far from my travels this year was when I saw the Pope riding in his car the day he was in Milan. It had not been planned to cross paths, but it made for a great memory.
As for traveling throughout France, I have done an abundance of that this year as well. This country is always showing me new things, new people and new food (très important). The weekend before I left for Italy, I went to Val de Loire, which is known for its Chateaux. There are many, and they are quite breathtaking. Something I love about living in Europe is that I feel like I am surrounded by history.
Recently, I have started a new job which I love. Compared to nannying, it’s something in which I feel like I am constantly learning (even though I just send a few emails and am supposed to be a “presence”). My colleagues are super interesting to work with, and having this job has helped me try to shape a path for my future that I am working on.
The relationships I have made this year have also been important for me. Something I have learned so far is to say “no” when I need to, and start making an effort with people who make an effort back. For me, the quality of a friendship is so much more important than the quantity. I like deep conversations about life, I like people who are motivated in their own life and like to take chances, and I like people who have an idea of what they want to do (even though we all end up lost at some point). My mom would always tell me when I was younger, “dime con quién andas y te diré quién eres“. Translated: tell me who you hang out with and I will tell you who you are. The older I am, the more I listen to her advice. I find that the more I am with people who want to do something, the more motivated in my own life I am.
I turned 22 this year in May. I am not going to lie, sometimes I feel so much older than my actual age. It can play a lot with my feelings. For one, I have always hung out and made friends with people who are older than I am, so I am used to being the baby. I am now going back to school with people who just have graduated from high school and who still live with their parents. It sometimes feels like I am living a double life depending on who I am hanging out with. I am also dating someone who is older than I am, which can sometimes be a struggle within itself. My friends from the states have mostly graduated from college and are on the search for real, “adult” jobs. Some are getting married, and others have already had kids (two things I am definitely not ready for). Age is just a number in the end, and something I have recently started to learn is that I shouldn’t compare myself to others…
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